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| In about 3 weeks, I'll be living 3 hours from here. It's a little depressing, but I know that it's happening for a reason. Life in this house has been an interesting experience. Can't really call it a bad one or a purely good one... but I think a fresh start might do me some good. On the downside, the place I'm moving to is pretty isolated. No stores nearby, no cell phone reception inside the house, no neighbors, none of that. On the upside, it's pretty nice out there... lots of land, good view of the sky at night (as long as you're not in the front yard...), and in general, it's pretty peaceful. On the major downside, the water smells. Literally. Not good. Anyway, I do believe I'll be getting a new phone sometime soon... I was due for an upgrade in August... but I just haven't gotten myself motivated enough to get on it... doesn't make a lot of sense, does it? Just to clarify, for any of you in Mr. Johnson's class, the piece of information to do with me that you might have heard in his class is completely untrue. Just thought I'd let that be known... It's time for me to write a paragraph with more than 2 lines. I can do it... I know I can. It just seems like I always want to make small thoughts and then jump to the next one quickly, and create a new paragraph to do so. Guess it's just a habit. =P Anyway, hope everybody liked the update... -Daniel- | | |
| So, this weekend was pretty long. My mom, Andrew, April and I went to take Sylvia to college Saturday. It was kind of weird... not at all like I expected to feel. I'm guessing that when it starts to sink in that she's at college is when the expected course of events will take place. By the way, if this blog seems a little bit vague or difficult to penetrate, it's because I largely use it for introspection, and so I don't always pay as much attention to clarity or uniform understandability as I might if I were writing it to someone. It's official: we're moving on the 6th of October. The wedding is on September 29th, which is 1 week before we're scheduled to move... I've got my questions and my doubts, and I must say that this is going to be the most change I've had to deal with in a while. So be praying for me, because I'm going to need it. I'm of the opinion that one of the primary reasons why I hate change so much is because I've grown so used to the familiar, the known, and I know all to well that once I leave here, I'll never be able to retrieve this part of my life. I guess the term "immobilized with fear" applies here; mixed with a healthy dose of depressing doubts. I hate doubt. It makes me shrink in on myself, it makes me lash out at other people, and it makes me unable to open my eyes and see. It destroys my confidence, squashes my initiative, and destroys my faith in the people around me. I just had the overwhelming desire to type 'Furthermore,'; and I did, but I decided to erase it, since I couldn't really think of anything good to follow it. That would be the results of what I would like to call a brain-spill, except that that doesn't make any sense anyway. Self awareness is strange... awareness of others is even stranger. Anyway, I wax philosophical... Life is changing. Wish me luck. -Daniel- | | |
| Well, I guess you could say that the idea of writing on Xanga hasn't been all that appealing lately. Not because of some intrinsic problem with Xanga, nor simply because I don't like blogging anymore. It just seems like a waste of time sometimes. Having said that, it seems worthwhile to compare the (sometimes) deep introspection involved in writing a blog- something which usually only takes a few minutes- to the hours I spend doing whatever else it is I manage to spend time doing. And suddenly blogging seems much more worthwhile... Not of course, that blogging is that important or useful thing necessarily, or that it's a vital part of everyday life. As far as I know, Jesus didn't write a blog; He had other people write about Him. Anyway, I say all this to make a simple, almost over-simple point: I should blog more. -Daniel- | | |
| So it's official... I haven't been doing much on xanga lately. A lot of the reason is that it takes an investment of attention and focus to put one of these together, and, to be quite honest, I just haven't felt like it lately. It's crazy the way life seems like it'll always be the same, and then it changes... It's also crazy that at any given point in my life, there are more forces acting on me than I could possibly understand. It's a major trip looking back at previous points in my life when my ability to understand the world around me was at a much lower level... Anyway, I think Andrew and I are going to buy Spyro the Dragon 1&3 (we already have 2)... because those games just rock!!! I guess that's all for now... -Daniel- P.S. If you feel like it, ask me sometime about a pattern involving Jesse, the Shaws and haircuts... | | |
| Well, I've been encouraged to update, so here it is... A lot has changed/happened/whatever else since the last time I updated... for those of you who have heard things and aren't sure, Jesse and I are, indeed, back together. Long story, if you want the full explanation, ask me about it... Anyway, life has been pretty boring at some points, pretty hectic/exciting/fast at others. Prom was cool, I guess... although, it did seem somewhat lacking of a point... most of what I did was stand around/sit around, with a little walking thrown in. No, I didn't dance... but not for lack of trying... lol I don't know how to describe life... I know that most of my problems are a direct result of my own selfishness... but by nature, I feel a need to blame them on other people or things... I think I won't pursue that topic any further right now... I should really stop talking to people while half asleep... lol -Daniel- | | |
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